
When I deny, I get fearful. My fearfulness produces hestiation. Soon, I become tense. I start to feel anxiousness, because a part of me recognizes that I am refusing to deal with or embrace the truth. In my tension I find a familiar place called procrastination. My procrastination then becomes becomes a setpoint, a norm. Because it is such a familiar place, denying the truth becomes normal, okay. And hardly anyone calls me out on it, because they don't want to deal with it either. Unless it is in criticizing someone else.
This is a path that I know well, one that I am intimately familiar with.
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You might try chatting with Joyce - both her barrels seem to be fully loaded and her trigger finger is itchy!
But I know what you mean, and I am one of your enablers, for which I apologize.
There is no higher priority or truth than being in the moment, and when we worry we are not in the moment.
Let your anxiety drive you into the moment for shelter.
Hi Gretchen,
No apology necessary to me, because I feel I am the one to apologize. We're all guilty of this one.
Be Now,
Great advice. Just hearing you say it, starts centering me in the direction of the moment. Thank you. :)
And your response brought me back to the moment.
Wouldn't you say we put off life and that we do by habit? We have become accustomed to living but not enjoying. The longer we put things off the harder they become until, one day, it becomes, or seems, almost impossible.
Great thoughts as always Mark :)
Good post. That resonates!
aka_lol,
Yes, I would say that, but the problem is that I also put that off... at least dealing with the truth of what you are sharing.
But I have to share something with you that I've learned through my martial arts training. I used to wholly subscribe to the persepective that I could not change, because I had put things off for so long.
For example, if I lied (especially to myself), than the trail back to the truth eventually became too long and hopeless to consider. What my Jiu Jitsu training helped me realize is that the road back to the truth does not need to be exhausting and overwhelming. Jiu Jitsu has taught me how to enter into a problem - instantly. (I am not suggesting that everyone needs to take JJ to learn this.) While it is certainly appropriate to turn and run at times, in my opinion Jiu Jitsu's greatest inner secrets lay in the direction of understanding how to enter into a problem, or more specifically how to center inside of it. From my limited perspective, it seems that the act of doing that is the same as 'mushin', so-called 'empty mind', the act of living in the moment. For me, that change and realization happens instantly once embraced, and is sustained by continuing to embrace that attitude in the moment. I struggle with the 'continuing' part.
However, whenever I am successful at doing that, I experience an instant centering. I find myself in a surprising place, a hyperspace bypass around the long, discouraging trudge back down the path of denial.
I am grateful that I have been taught how to do this. It has helped me realize what I term 'an essential truth', i.e., that my problems are only a single attitude adjustment, a single moment away from being resolved in a better direction.
I really enjoy your honest and humorous writing and thought provoking insights. You challenge me to be more honest.
Thanks, Rob. I feel it in me bones... the resonance of procrastination. :)